American Idol Week 1 Results

grrrrr that's how I feel after this week!


One of my favorite girls was booted this week and I don't understand why, I think there is a lot of talent on the girls end this year but I also believe there were AT LEAST 5 girls that did worse then Janelle and I'm shocked that she was first to get kicked off! I'm bummed needless to say but I am also guilty of not voting (I know I know) but I didn't think I needed to because it was so obvious who the weak links are (not to name names but Haeley, I mean c'mon people!) I think the other choice of letting Ashley was correct, I think she has a great voice and it may have even been a bad choice of song that ultimately sent her packing but I still don't think she would have won the whole thing so either now or later.......
So next week I'M VOTING!!!! Until then here are the results and list of favorites

And now for the boys......
grrrrrrrrrrrr once again I don't' think America got this right! And I'm stunned that Joe didn't get another shot, I'm not sure how he would add up to some of the bigger talent as the weeks went on but I certainly didn't expect his idol journey to end so soon.....
Tyler I wasn't sure of, I did like him at first but I get what the judges were saying about how gimmicky he was. And it didn't seem sincere, he was trying to hard to be exactly like Jim Morrison and it didn't seem right, it didn't seem like he really believed it. I would have been very interested in seeing what he would have come up with in the weeks to come but unfortunately we wont' get the chance to see what Tyler can do :(

THIS IS....AMERICAN IDOL!

Ok so American Idol!


One of my all time favorite shows, it got old for some people I know but I love it! and I also love that Dave and I can actually watch it together (even though we tend to argue throughout the show, so bad that last night Jared had to holler at us!)
Ok so here is where I'm going to offer my picks for favorite of the week, and counting down to who I think will will the all time title.

AND FOR THE BOYS......

my sweet love

My most profound moments have been with you... talking of life and death, spirituality, sex, emotion
I worry, sometimes uncontrollably, without rationality
and you set me back down.....to earth
calm, sensitive, realistic
you see me, really see me
and I know you


our love is amazing
and I cherish every last moment with you

my sweet love

There you stood,
holding me,
waiting for me to notice you.
But who are you?
You are the truth,
outscreaming these lies.


You are the truth,
saving my life.
      
                   ~ FLYLEAF

LIFE! Inspired

Picture Story!

So most of you know that for my birthday my amazing wonderful husband bought me a Nikon D5000 professional grade camera! And for christmas my wonderful family went in to get a new a new zoom lens! Here are some pics to show you how we've been doing with it.....

Most of these are unedited (aside from a few) I have to get better with learning the camera settings and using photoshop, so i'm moving along slowly but surely.
Hope you enjoy there's more to come soon!!

Dear John...

Ok so I finished Dear John (by Nicholas Sparks) over the weekend and although I did enjoy the book I was less than thrilled about the ending. For those of you that haven't read the book yet and plan to please don't continue to read this as there will be spoilers! **(you've been warned)***


So I think my biggest problem with the whole thing is that John didn't end up with the girl!? I get the selfless act of love at the end, he left her alone to be with her husband, he anonymously gave her the $ to get her husband the best care possible at MD Anderson, which most likely ultimately saved his life, but WHY WHY WHY did he let her go!? IT was obvious to me that he still loved her and even more obvious that she still loved him. Yes she loved her husband too but not the same way, she knew it, John knew it, for heaven sake even her husband knew it!!! So again I get it, but I don't like it, lol

And then at the end he's watching her and she comes out to look at the moon??!! REALLY??? I mean if that's something she still does it means John is on her mind daily, and yeah she stayed with her husband but holding that love for someone else in your heart takes away from your relationship with the person you're with. Tim stole her away in the first place, yes she knew him first but they weren't in love, and they weren't together then. I understand how things happened, John reenlisted in the Army and Tim tragically lost his parents but that doesn't excuse the fact that they found comfort and convinence in each other which is why they were together. And really it's Savannahs fault for marring Tim if she was in love with someone else. In the book she said "I tried to convince myself so many times that it would have never worked out with us" but why? I mean it just seems to me that she used Tim to get over or though her relationship with John while he was in the Army, maybe she just married him because she was guilty for using him and being a religious (and ultimately good person) she figured it was the right thing to do, any maybe that's why she stays with Tim in the end. But excuse me doesn't anyone notice that no one in this scenario is truly happy? I mean how could they be, Savannah although she loves Tim loves John more, Tim as much as he loves Savannah knows this, and John is left alone at the end, knowing Savannah is the only women he's ever loved, truly loved. ugh....not happy people......not happy!

on a side note I heard the movie was fantastic (not to mention the gorgeous actors)! Hopefully the ending is different....but in any case I'm very much looking forward to seeing it.

This is my solem vow

So lately I've been thinking....

There's not much I can do about this really but it's something that bugs me, more some time than others, and this happens to be one of those times.
Last night while having a conversation with my brother, we happened to get into talking about the world (well our world really which would be the US, or more specifically New York State). We were complaining and commiserating about the way things are, how much health insurance costs here as opposed to other countries, and how some people get it all for free (some deservedly to help them back on their feet and some are a just lazy bums)!
I will fully admit that I voted for Obama (because c'mon people something had to change!!) I will also admit that since that day I voted for him I haven't really been following up on what he's been doing, or what he's been working on. I don't know if any of the promises he made have been put in place or if he just forgot about it all once he was elected. I'm sure, however he's still more for the middle class than McCain was. So moving on I think it really sucks the way things are run around here, the rising costs of health insurance and expenses is getting outrageous, and hearing my brothers point of view, being a physician and being on that end of it he's also getting screwed with getting less $$ from the insurance companies. So basically they raised our rates, lowered the rate the Doctors get paid and are pocketing all the money????!!! I mean what the F*ck!! Sorry but this is getting ridiculous! And meanwhile people that have lower income, or those that chose not to or can not work are getting excellent benefits and they're all for free! grrr some things just aren't fair. It's wonderful to be able to help those in need but help us too, I mean we're paying for it. There is no reason the HMO need to make the money they do i mean isn't this called price gouging????? It seems like the original ideas were there, they were solid, when insurance first came out and everyone paid into it, probably way back in the day, 1920's or so, but some a$$hole along the way figured out how to make a sh*tload of $$$ that he doesn't need and walla! prices are up. It's like that with everything too, health insurance, car insurance, taxes it's crazy. and it's exhausting.....
Dave puts it into perspective for me each time I get on this tangent. He mentions that it builds character to work for things, to know they're yours, and to some extent we need some to be on welfare and to get everything for free, it keeps some up and some down and it's the way we function as a society; however it still ticks me off because while I don't' mind "paying my own way" and I enjoy being able to make my own money and actually be able to buy nice things and to go to nice places on vacations, etc. it still sucks that WE have to work so hard and WE don't see the same benefits that THEY do. The insurance that the "uninsured" now have for FREE is way better than my plan and I'm paying for it, when they're not. And the thing that sucks is for small business owners trying to pay for insurance for their families the rates are OUTRAGEOUS, believe me when I tell you. It's just a bit twisted I think, and it definitely makes me angry.
I remember being in school and applying for financial aid. I got about $300 a semester for free and had to take out loans (with interest!) to pay of the rest, when my girlfriend and was a minority with two kids got everything paid for and then some. It's like oh sure, here's enough to cover all of your tuition for two years, here's a crap load of money for your books and here while you're at it why not take another $2000 dollars! (which by the way this girl decided to use as spending money for a new TV, play station and whatever other frivolous things she decided to buy, she didn't need the money to pay for living expenses etc, she had the money she needed to live and to take care of her babies, but they still gave her the money. For me they said oh well your parents make too much money, and I'm like ok well they're not paying for my tuition, oh well it doesn't matter because you still live at home, ugh whatever!!!

I hear in other countries these things are free, education, child care, heath insurance, etc. Wouldn't that be nice? (And the wonderful US of A is like # 75 on the list of "best places to live") I know there are down sides to that too, and I get that but geez.....if only I ran the world....things would be a lot different people!!!

And so with that being said maybe I'll run for president!





Cartoon by David Horsey / Seattle P.I.

Music Speaks.....

Music can transform me....take me to another place, to another realm, another state of mind. I love when I hear a song and it wakes me up, out of my mind and out of any distractions or aggravations of the current moment. It's like it opens a pathway to a clearer place where everything makes sense again.

Then there are the songs that bring back memories a specific time and place. A freckle on my lifeline. But it takes me there, right there in that moment.

Some songs will remind me of certain people, Cat Stevens, Peter Gabriel, Super tramp, those are all for my dad. Sade, Eric Clapton, John Secada, those are for my mom. I hear the song and i immediately think of them, it's great in that way.

The sound, the words, it moves me unlike anything else.

I love to just get lost in it, listen to it so loud so that it surrounds me....

Currently I'm listening to Smashing pumpkins 1979 and I'm back in the car with my friends, singing at the top of our lungs, 17 years old, not a care in the world, driving just to drive, Freedom!

Twilight